Maria's story
Growing up in Vienna, Austria, Europe with an immigration background, but in a very prestigious neighbourhood, Maria was facing extremes from her early beginnings. On the one side, unreachable wealth, and on the other side, day-to-day struggles for survival, ongoingly being threatened physically and emotionally. This upbringing led her to the deep urge to escape this world. Maria got fascinated by death and what exists beyond it. She searched for ways to explore the dimensions of existence through different states of consciousness. Studying religions and concepts of what life is all about, she explored Theta Healing, Quantum Healing, Pleiadean and Sirian Light Work, Atlantean Crystal Work, Energetic Transformation and Exorcism, Channeling and Soul Travel quite excessively. In these early years, she already proved to herself the existence of the soul beyond the borders of the physical body.
Growing up in an abusive environment additionally created a deep urge for true freedom, independence and peace of mind. She almost lost herself in these interdimensional worlds. But one day, she realized that there must be a reason for being still alive in this physical body, though reaching out for the other worlds so intensively. She decided to concentrate on and master her physical existence instead and finished two master's degrees, becoming a female entrepreneur, serial founder and CFO, overreaching all the goals she set for herself.
But she was never truly happy and peaceful, realizing there was something missing in her life, as she still did not feel fulfilled.
Then came Covid. Stuck alone in a little apartment in a foreign country apart from her husband at that time she got back to her old meditation routines and spiritual exercises. She always felt energy strongly, but during a Joe Dispenza meditation in the summer of 2020, she finally said "YES" to life, and since then, energy has started to flow ecstatically, causing orgasm-like sensations within her body. In the following months, the intensity constantly kept increasing until it peaked in a spontaneous Kundalini Awakening in November 2020, leaving her in a fiery sun and an ecstatic state for hours.
From this date, everything in her life started crumbling. Circumstances that were okay were not stable and for sure any more. She could not stay in the home she was in; she had to leave. What was acceptable wasn't acceptable or bearable any more. Her marriage broke apart, and as they were also business partners, she had to leave the companies her career there. All aspects of her life were crushed in only a couple of months. She felt like everything was taken from her. She lost all she had built over decades. She had to let go of the illusion of stability as nothing stayed the same at all. That was tough, but it made space for something completely new.
She had to leave her familiar surroundings and surrender to the flow of the life force energy. She got a van and started driving, with no specific target, purely following where her heart was pulling her, not knowing where she would end up. During these months of travelling, she also searched for ways to deal with the energy that rushed through her in unpredictable and uncontrollable ways, often leaving her desperately searching for answers and ways to cope with it.
Thankfully, the energy also kept sending her people and entities, providing answers, though mostly in very unexpected manners. These experiences and encounters supported her on her path, and she managed to find ways to embrace the energy, learning that Kundalini energy does not allow any blockages to stand in its path, unleashing enormous power until you let go of anything that doesn't let it flow freely. Kundalini energy forces you to jump into the abyss, but if you don't resist and surrender to the power of the life force itself, then you find joy and fulfilment beyond imaginable possibilities, and the life you were supposed to live begins to manifest in the here and now right in front of you.
Current Engagements
While I was experiencing the fire sun burning me alive while moaning and going through these ecstatic full-body sensations, I was in my home office sitting at my laptop. As the intensity kept growing, instead of slowing down, I became increasingly desperate and typed into Google Search, "Kundalini Awakening - What to do? What to do?" But unfortunately, I was shattered as the information I gathered was not helpful, mostly theory and impossible to apply in my current situation. Ultimately, I found the statement that fire can be treated with water. As this orgasm continued for almost four hours, I moved slowly to the shower and poured cool water on the top of my head, which thankfully eased the sensations after a while, leaving me deeply grateful for that hint. I don't know what I would have done otherwise.
The following months were tough as my body underwent significant adjustments, and I had to learn to integrate high energy levels. On top of that, all my main life conditions were crushed, and I had to undergo drastic changes in all areas of my life, including my home, job, career, marriage, friends and family. Thankfully I was introduced to an Indian guru who guided me through the process, and I am incredibly grateful for his lead. I want to share what made me integrate and understand what happened. In this regard, I am currently engaged in these projects:
Meditations: self-created guided meditations published on InsightTimer
Publishing: blog, podcast and book assignments
Academy: courses to increase freedom, peace and joy published on Blue Sea Academy
Interviews: data collection for a documentary on Kundalini Awakening from a Western perspective
Community: building a Kundalini-awakened community, sharing our insights to support each other
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